So, I worked with a friend at his job in the past, though paid under the table. Today, he came over and bribed me with alcohol to fill in for him at his job. I'm actually ok with it, and even without the alcohol would be ok with it, but now that I'm drunk, I'm depressed and really being harsh at myself with the self loathing. Why the fuck can't I be happy? I'm being seriously honest when I say that I haven't been happy in a long time. I don't know, maybe I'm just being a baby.