im so tired of the drama my friends seem to love to create and try to involve me in. ive had almost a dozen people call/text/facebook me trying to explain their side of the story. Look, i love you guys like brothers, but I am NOT taking sides in your pissing match. Yes, we can hang out and get some eat and toss some brews back, but i DO NOT want to hear your lawyer-style defense/prosecution case. Stop being a drama queen about dumb shit.
am i being too apathetic?
Heh, i think that's reasonable. I hate getting in the middle of things myself. Two of my friends from school were together and then broke up recently, and it was awkward as shit- every time i tried talking to the girl she would start talking about the break up and how much she wants to be back together with him, and how much she fucked up and what should she doooooo- and i'm like "whaaaat the fuuuck don't ask me...." especially since I know the guy too. They are back together again, and they better stay that way until the end of the semester >=[
Edit.
Also, i woke up at 7 am, on my own a few minutes before the alarm, got my coffee, got ready for work, but then checked my email and remembered i don't go to work today but tomorrow. I can't exactly go back to sleep now, mmmm....
Last edited by halloween; 02-20-2012 at 06:44 AM.
Dear History Channel:
PAWN STARS IS NOT FUCKING HISTORY. More documentaries about Nazi gold and Pol Pot, goddammit.
Thank you.
History Channel has been falling off as of lately. I agree!
The gaming world really needs to stop subjecting gamers to buying 4 different copies of a game to get exclusive content from other retailers. Same thing with music and bonus songs or content. And people wonder why others download music?
Just spent ten minutes wiping dried dog shit off the bottom of my shoe with hot water, q-tips, and paper towels.
Anyone who leaves their dog's shit on the sidewalk is a really poor excuse for a human being.
Definitely! Especially when it comes to bonus tracks or shirts or posters only included on foreign releases of any particular album. I WANT to buy the products, but I'm not going to jump through hoops to order it from another country. Just give the fans the OPTION to pay for the extra goods, at least.
If you come over to my house unannounced while I'm watching a Lakers game, I will ignore you. DON'T GIVE ME ATTITUDE OR MAKE A DRAMATIC DOOR-SLAMMING EXIT WHEN THIS HAPPENS.
Fucking drama queens.
You really didn't just say skipping grade school to watch TLC? Awesome.
Same could be said for The Bravo Channel, which is now the Real Housewives channel.
Reality is - Pawn Stars and the like sell advertising and that's the only thing keeping them alive. Pol Pot does not sell trucks, laundry detergent or disability insurance.
sometimes The Price is Right made a convincing offer too.
well he should, dammit! how amazing would that be? probably less amazing than a world without arbitrary systematic death and appalling totalitarian regimes. but pretty damn odd.
i was going to make an old man comment about the degeneration of TV. but while informative, documentary cable TV has taken a pretty tough slide. actual entertainment is amazing. How I Met Your Mother obliterates Friends.
Old man? Pahlease. New Girl > How I Met Your Mother. OK, maybe not.
I'm having such a shitty day at work, I just told myself not to reply to any more emails because I know I'm going to go postal and it's going to come across. For some reason, in a business full of techy men, I'm appreciated: bitch white female nerd. Go figure.
I'm still turning off email. I need this job more than ever.
Last edited by Dra508; 02-26-2012 at 03:30 PM.
someday, insomnia, you and i are going to stop being friends. i would love to sleep soundly every single night for the rest of my life.
Freaking sports fans. "ALRIIIIGHT! WE DID IT!" What did you do? Man, you watched the SHIT out of that game! Good work!
I spent six hours today trying to record the bassline for a song, and nothing I did worked. For some reason the tone just didn't fit. I've never had such a hard time getting the goddamn bass to sound right... I feel like I've lost my mind and my ears are completely fried.
i hate when that happens. i especially hate trying to fiddle with a delay pedal through a synth. everytime i get it just right, i leave for the day and come back to a whole new setting.
Today seems to be making a lot of people feel down, myself included.
My OCD is getting really, really bad. There are times when I feel like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown over this crap.
^^Heh...well, I do appreciate it. And I am trying to fight it, though it's really hard. I don't remember what it's called, but there's a type of therapy where you basically force yourself to not give in to the compulsions, and over time it eventually kind of wears away at it and the OCD gets better. I don't have insurance, so I can't see a therapist about this at the moment (which would definitely help, and which I need) but I'm getting better at ignoring my compulsions, hoping they'll start to ease up a bit. It damn near became a necessity, because I'm getting to the point where I just can't handle this level of anxiety all the time, and I forced myself to start trying to improve it. Baby steps, but it's a start.
Last edited by theruiner; 02-29-2012 at 05:18 AM.
Cognitive Behaviour Therapy? There's a technique to battle negative thinking which asks you put your thought into a sentence, and then to answer the following:
What is the evidence that this is going to happen? What is the evidence that this is not going to happen?
What are the advantages of thinking this way? What are the disadvantages of thinking this way?
What would you say to a friend that said this?
It's something you have to keep thinking over like a mantra. It is pretty hard to do, but you might notice your spirits lift momentarily when you do it and then perhaps the effects will last longer each time.
Breaking down your actions to the smallest detail also helps. I used to be physically sick at the thought of meeting new people. Now I just think "we're just going to get dressed, nothing else, we're just getting dressed". Then we're just putting our eyeliner on, then we're just putting our shoes on, then we're just getting our train, then we're just walking to this place, and then you're there and you may as well go in. This still works very well for me because I have a tendency to dwell on bad things that have happened, even years after the fact, and keeping busy is a good way to stay positive.
Sorry if this is patronising, but hopefully even a reminder will be of use.
Last edited by icklekitty; 02-29-2012 at 05:28 AM. Reason: I done more writing.
See, here's the thing. This is a bit reductionist, but here we go. You're a smart individual; that's clear. So it seems clear to me that you can get to the point of wellness, of not sweating the small stuff. I'm not a doctor or a therapist or whoever might be able to tell you how to get to that point of wellness. But it's blindingly clear to me that you can.
So either you will, or you won't. If you won't it's because you haven't tried, or haven't looked hard enough, or live in a country that fucks you over because you're not lucky enough to be born rich. Prost.
I was a bit compulsive about some things, and I learned to let them go. I'm sure it's nothing as serious as your situation, because I was able to do so simply by giving myself a good talking to. But I can be pretty stern. Oh well.
Good luck, buddy.
Last edited by Timinator; 02-29-2012 at 05:25 AM. Reason: I'm a moron
Fuck internship hunting. I'm smart damn it, stop picking classmates who are passing because of my help over me!
Ok, that's not nice. But still, its irritating.
I was really looking forward to having some privacy this weekend but it turns out that my parents changed their mind about heading away for the weekend. Hoo-fucking-ray...
I hate to sound like a bitching teenager but I was really looking forward to spending some alone time with my girlfriend. Doesn't look like that'll happen any time soon.
Just found out that a prof in my dept has just published a book on a topic which is very close to that of my dissertation. They laugh at you, they say you can't write on this or that. Then they go do it. Wonderful.