Originally Posted by
Substance242
So, I have this woman coworker, beautiful, smart, funny, attractive... We go to lunch together sometimes (she asked, I wouldn't dare to), have a great time, extend the lunch to go buy something, share stories or pictures (she's not on social media at all), she bought me a very good book for my birthday, I insert little invisible jokes in e-mails knowing she will get it, or I set my communicator status to something and she WILL try to figure that out, I am jealous when I hear her laugh and I wasn't the one who caused that (stupid, right? heh)... this has to stop. She's married with children and I can not afford to lose my mind, my health and sobriety are priority number one. I'm not saying something could happen, but I can't keep doing this and I have to turn her down a bit... damn. :-( I'd gladly be friend with her if I was emotionally and sexually saturated, but this is impossible, fuck. And it's not fair, she can return to her family and I then return to an empty house and can't help but think about her. "Tracks will fade in the snow, you won't find me here..."
And I am awake since 5 a.m., much before I need to, with a boner and trying to stop having fantasies with her...
Update: So, I managed to tell her something like "I'm sorry but I have to avoid you a little bit", and she answered "Thank you for deciding that also for me" - what on earth was that supposed to mean? Damn... :-(