my brother died suddenly last saturday of an overdose. he was 35. we'd been estranged since he stole my identity and ss# when i was 19.
he sent me a friend request on facebook and i denied it.
a little forgiveness would have gone a long way.
my brother died suddenly last saturday of an overdose. he was 35. we'd been estranged since he stole my identity and ss# when i was 19.
he sent me a friend request on facebook and i denied it.
a little forgiveness would have gone a long way.
Very sorry to hear that.
thank you, aggro.
That's rough.
Addiction is such a tricky thing. It's difficult to find the balance between being supportive, and enabling negative behavior.
So sorry.
you're so right, sarah. thank you.
It's not too late to forgive him. Think good thoughts about him now. I'm sorry for your loss. :-(
Last edited by allegro; 11-07-2014 at 10:43 PM.
Being in most of the relationships I've been in were not in my best interests. When I really look back on my love life history, I actually have a pretty terrible track record.
I got some water stuck in my ear in the shower. I figured it would just go away when the water popped out, as usual. Water didn't pop out, and several days later I have an infection and a fever caused by said infection. The area around the ear hurts, the ear itself feels like there is a fucking baseball lodged in it, I can't hear shit out of it(temporary), and it hurts to chew food. The pain was so bad I missed work for a couple days, and I almost never miss work. I saw an ENT, which is a kind of ear specialist and now I'm taking oral and eardrop antibiotics and painkillers. Its feeling better, but its still a motherfucker.
I guess it isn't really a stupid thing I did, more like a freak "shit happens" thing. I mean, the water usually pops out eventually. This has been my year for freak "shit happens" things, along with the motorcycle calf burn.
Trusted people.
The girl I lost my virginity to was a pretty stupid thing to do...
i constantly shoot first and aim later.
so everything i've done is stupid. but alot of fun too.
I signed up as a member of echoing the sound.
At my first NIN show, (Erie in 06) a friend I had made online previous to the show offered me a spare ticket and ride to and back home from the next night's show (In Rochester). Since I had just met her in person, and was 19 years old, I thanked her but declined. She caught Trent's tambourine, and we have grown to be best friends (we usually carpool to any show in the Ohio-PA-NY-Toronto area, now). I really hate myself for not going, especially since the Erie show was such a different setlist from the rest of the tour, I never got to see a lot of the "stapes".
I can actually relate to this on a serious note with Internet forums and social networking websites in general. I often thought about who and what I was and still am and will be, and how and why, and it has always lead to me to question and wonder why I ever bothered to join any to start with. Unfortunately, it took me so many years of absolute ignorance and foolishness on my part for me to come to that final conclusion.
*I know that this is a bit personal, but I'm also trying to get my point across without saying too much by keeping it as light and general as possible, as I've tried to abstain from getting into personal matters online these days. And well, I thought it's on topic anyway, since this thread is about doing stupid things, and for a post like this, I'd have to make this unavoidable exception.*
Please don't get me wrong though, as I still like and enjoy both types of websites on some levels, as they certainly provide a wealth of information and entertainment. I would even venture to admit that I even love some of them a lot more than others, but hindsight after learning more and more about socializing has helped me gain a much further and deeper understanding as to why one would completely avoid both types of websites even if they might be heavily based/invested on interests and subjects that they might happen to love. If I knew then what I know now, I probably wouldn't have joined any either, or would've at the very least, stayed on the sidelines most of the time if/when I did. In many ways, this makes me thankful to not have grown up with them. I just know that it wouldn't have gone well for me at all.
*I didn't really get into the Internet back then, and actually didn't have it for quite a while growing up. I only got seriously involved with social media since 2002, and only got seriously involved with forums since 2004. What also prompted me to think about this was me imagining what it would have been like for me to have grown up with the existence of Facebook, Twitter and YouTube.*
In short: So in spite of immersing myself in forums and social media while actually enjoying them, it's still sometimes really as if I was actually never ever meant to be on them at all.
Last edited by Halo Infinity; 11-19-2015 at 09:33 PM.
edit. nevermind.
Last edited by kel; 11-13-2015 at 02:39 PM. Reason: too personal, i suck as a human being.
^no you don't. don't say that about yourself.
i don't even like you very much (i do respect you though,) but it's still disheartening to read that.
Last edited by ldopa; 11-14-2015 at 02:09 AM.
thank you?
i really do. an emotional affair is a thousand times worse than a physical one. that's all i can say.
it means nothing, though, in what some board members are going through after the attacks in paris. my heart is with them and i'm so sad.
a gay, liberal, feminist became a bigot on ets tonight.
i know how sorry i am won't compete with the darkness to come. fuck, i screwed up.
@c0f3d , chill the fuck out.
My hair goes down past the middle of my back. It's long, i mean REALLY fucking long, and it tangles easy.
This week when i've taken a shower, i decided not to wash my hair. Other people go for a few days without washing it, right?
And so i haven't brushed it in like five days.
It's like one big fucking dreadlock. I'm about to put a whole tube of that conditioner that comes with hair dye in it and HOPEFULLY i can untangle it without losing half of it. :/
G used to have long hair (not THAT long, but long) and he finally cut it and he loves that he got rid of it; dude, long hair is so 90s. Even Anthony Kiedis cut his hair.
Not SHORT hair!! Just not hair THAT long. It's actually not that good for your hair or scalp.
I've had nearly a shaved head to really long hair, but I have a LOT of REALLY THICK hair; if I put it in a pony tail while it's wet, it's still wet about 10 hours later in the pony tail. It takes about 30 minutes to blowdry my hair when it's pretty long. And then I'm lucky I don't look like Chaka Khan. Stupid. When I was a kid, some adult was always screaming at me to brush my "rat's nest."
So I finally cut it all again, recently.
I feel like I lost 30 pounds. And my arm doesn't hurt when I blowdry my hair, lol.
G has gorgeous curly hair and when he had long hair, he was always pulling the hell out of it to straighten it and would always wear it in a ponytail; the amount of breakage in his hair was unbelievable.
But, yeah, I lived in the 60s, I remember hippy guys with long hair then, too. Well except maybe Ted Nugent. He wasn't a hippy, then or now. He's an asshole.
Last edited by allegro; 11-18-2015 at 07:14 PM.
Yeah, I keep mine at about nipple-length. I trim it on the regular, to keep it healthy and strong. Though I'm sure wearing a ponytail for 60+hours a week is not good for my hair...
I fell in love with 2 of my married art professors.
I have always been very selfish. I learned this the hard way.
Lolz... life is full of stupid things.
I picked Warhammer 40k back up as a hobby. I mean, its fun, but goddamn that cash investment though.